Quote Originally Posted by IFingHateTonTon
My god did I have the biggest fucking crush on her, and she was BEAUTIFUL and would always flirt with me hardcore. This took place for two years. It was obvious she wanted to be with me now that I look back, but unfortunately I was a dumb gullible fuck back then and never moved in on it.Hell, I never even saw it like that, I just assumed there was no way a girl this awesome and beautiful could fall right into my lap, and viewed her as a friend.. Then I graduated and she stayed in highschool, she was two years younger than me.
Almost identical situation with me, except I still have 3 months before I actually reach your stage (aka leave high school). I've known this one girl for a loooooooooong time and last year she hanged out with this friend of hers at the school's computer lab. They're both 2 years under me. I was there occasionally and I didn't know anything about her friend. One day they asked me for some help with Powerpoint so I said "Yeah sure". I went over and helped them out. The way I talk in real life (no, not as in I have an accent or anything) is very different from how I write on this forum, and a lot of people think I'm a pretty funny guy. I guess this girl's friend did as well.

That was our first encounter pretty much. A few months after we went on this 3-day DECA trip. It was a provincial business competition thing and that girl came along as well. At the last day, nobody had anything to do so I just hanged around in the mall with a friend. There we met the "girl squad", consisting of two girls whom I've known for a hella long time and that *other* girl. We were at the food court and she asked to share her ice cream with me. Being an absolute dumb fuck at the time, I was like "whoa she can't be serious, especially in front of her friends whom I've known for all my life." So I declined her offer. To this day I still think about that reply I gave and regret it like nothing else. At the time I was outright confused because this girl was still pretty much a stranger. The only thing I knew about her was her name.

Later that day we all sat at the lobby and waited for the bus. The girl squad came over and sat with my group, and that girl sat beside me on my left, IIRC. We just chatted casually until one of her friends brought over some Timbits. I grabbed one of those jam-filled ones and she ripped of it out of my hand. At that moment I knew she was flirting around with me, so I just played along. On the bus home I sat behind her and occasionally talked, but I slepted through most of the trip because I always sleep on the bus. That way was probably the highlight of the trip.

A night or two later, she adds me to MSN. I assumed she asked her friend for my email. So we chatted all night about random stuff because jumping from topic to topic is my forte. She was now a new friend of mine. She's two years younger than me but she's very mature. Over the next few months we occasionally had long chats like that, long because I almost never get to see her in person at school since she's nowhere near any of my classes. I always thought of her as just a friend because she's two years younger than me and there's no way anything could happen. We still have long chats like back then and I've known her for a full year now. I try to see her in person as much as possible but it's tough.

I think it's too late to do anything, especially with me leaving high school in a few months. I didn't have the balls to do anything when opportunity was knocking and I certainly can't do anything now. The one problem is that I still don't know all that much about her because instant messaging is not great for that. I'm positive that she knows more about me than I do about her because I'm a really outgoing guy while she's the quiet type. This girl is really pretty and extremely smart, something you don't see too often in high school. Like IFHTT said, for a long while I truly thought she is THE ONE but the time for that has passed already. I'll probably never see her again once she graduates because she says she wants to leave the city to study media while I'm staying at the local university (University of Waterloo if you're wondering). I guess I had the chance to at least do something with her in this limited time but I blew it I'd give up everything to go back to the moment with us sitting there waiting for the bus...