I finally saw the last of a very bitter break-up today. I hadn't spoken to or seen my ex-girlfriend in over a month, until last night. I tried to confront her to make peace, to no avail. She told me to go away and cursed me out.
After it became painfully obvious that she hated me now and wanted absolutely nothing to do with me, I sent her a facebook message telling her I'd like to be her friend again some day. A word of warning: Never do that. Now she's severed all contact with me and resents me for being annoying.
The smiling part comes in just after I went through this. My favorite roommate who had moved out at the end of last semester came in at 3 in the morning to get the rest of his stuff. He was just the person I needed to see. I nearly cried.
It's quite bittersweet, feeling absolutely alone and lost, and at the same time knowing that you have mountains of friends who care about you and you can talk to. Makes me smile. The healing begins now.
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