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lol man, if you had a hot boyfriend who never turned old, wouldn't you want to not look old and decrepit beside him, especially if you started dating him when he was supposed to be the same age as you? what kind of girl wouldn't be worried that the boy would lose interest in her when she was all old and wrinkly? in bella's case, that'd be even more prominent because she lost edward once already and doesn't want to lose him again. i dunno, i do agree that bella wants to become a vampire right away mostly because she doesn't want to look older than him, but i don't think it's shallow, i think it's perfectly understandable.

i also don't think bella has any problems committing to a long term relationship with edward. like you said, she does want to be a vampire and live with him forever. she just doesn't like the idea of marriage because it's been so hardwired into her by her mother

i think what i like the most about bella is she's not your typical kind of heroine. she's not the least bit girly, hopelessly clumsy, and somewhat naive. it makes her kind of endearing. of course, if she was a real person, i'd hate her with a jealous passion for landing edward, but since she's fictional, i'm pretty okay with her.

i'll pick the host up soon. i just kinda dented my bank account a little bit when i bought all three twilight books in three days, so i'm going to let it recover for a bit.