You said it; maybe I should've elaborated it for your tiny intellect in saying armour plating [to defend against bullets/knifes which later (before batman begins) turned into full fledged kevlar+bulletproof sections], I just assumed you knew, being the batman afficianado that you proofed to be, reading such amazingly written classics as The Cult.
Yes, it's incredibly painful to live a life where your favourite hobby is your job; your insanity has reached the point where your idea of happiness is having your hopes and dreams shot down after brilliantly trying drugs.
Seriously, you are better of killing yourself.